:)-2007

in times of essence
i think about you
your hair
that great smile
just the things that you do
and all the wayside
im holding back my love for you
because im just not sure
if you feel that way to
for maybe its care
that holds me so tight
cuz when your gone and come back
i cant put up a fight
an what drives me wild
is that theres no one like you
the way you are
the names you call me
its like i never knew
i think i melt inside 
from the candles you light
and every time you come to mind
you shine so bright
that i just lose my way 
and it sometimes scares me 
cuz with you id lose track of days
for hours could pass
and my cares would only be for you
but you may never know
that i die a little, without you.

hmmm...

fishing thru waters
walking thru walls
all these memories
built up in a call
wishing to the past
for hope of the future
all while wondering
what happened to closure
all the closed doors
suddenly open to a choosing
and im scared to look through
for the chance of me losing
departed
and desolate
i seek your light
and given your heart
id cherish it in the night
for in an unsettled storm
i'd find you in a second
could you be the one
that pulls me from this wreckage
would you care nothing more
to know nothing less
of a girl whose heart
is put to the test
to love and let live
or live and let love
carry her away
and forever cherish
all the ways.. of love...

words...

In storms and in rain

The memories flood back

And when you’re onpour subsides

I’m pushed that far back

Be it not or never was

I long for your touch

Another hug

A precious kiss

Never have I wished for this much

This longing of a love

It tears so deep

But I’m puddles for you

When my heart you reap

For the mystery of you

Lingers so far deep

I grasp in the dark

But only the surface I can reach

I can’t break through

Those chains on your heart

And as time passes by

I’m right back to where we start…

Coming down...

Take me on a refuge

Love me in a fight

Now all the things you measure

Just sit tight

We’re breaking thru our darkness

In Every way we know

And distance plays a part

More often than you show

I wander in the mist

Finding you in every kiss missed

We walk along(in thoughts prolonged)

 Seeking refuge

In days gone and past

Could it be better

Think this will last

I just have to see you

 for more than you know

but time runs away

And so does its glow…

Feels like autumn...

so for the answers
 you always knew
i  hope in trust
love  tooo
tell me what ...you want from me
you plant it on your self
you see
for the distance makes it harder
and distance makes us cooold
were far from perfect
but life gets so old

cuz for these answers
you say you knew
does hope not linger
with no clue
is this trust
so you say
ur better off living this way

cuz for the answers that i know
ur lying truth it
carries a blow
for distance makes it harder
were better with a fight
but all along we wonder
why we cling so tight

so put me in a river
paint me on a sea
sail me far away
from were u want to bee

i get its over
an i get its tough
so how can i tell you
that it hurts
just this much
....soo muchh

for my dear...

for all things here
show me heart
show me you care
sing a melody so sweet
i can wait
its my defeat
with my heart in your hands
youve won me over
all things discovered
cuz im yours
and when the flowers bloom
i cant help but see you
ur in my heart
your in my mind
were are everything
together..together
cuz i love you
forever..
for ever in our lives i sing a song
just for u
your breathe ever daY
WITHOUT you
what can i say
i need nothing less
i feel nothing more
then your love
i know its for sure
cuz ur my love and my light
u surprised me
without sight
when i fell
baby you
so take my hand
for the time we will stand
forever
forever with you.

just thoughts...

wishin you were here
wishing always
oh how the nights
turn to fades
and i linger
in the dARK
WISHING FOR LIGHT
hoping for
ur sunlight
oh how ur canvas shines
bringing forth dayS
in those blue eyes
and in those arms
i sing for days
cuz our love
will last always